Shhhhh....I got some results; but, still really can't talk about it

Well, I received the results of my most recent blood work.  There has been no improvement and I am now being sent back to the hematologist.  I will see my previous hemat-dr this Thursday.  I am looking forward to getting things diagnosed and treated.  Hopefully it will help some of the issues I've been having for a while.

The portion of this post that is hush hush is this...in my research to find out all I can about the condition I have I stumbled upon a bit of information.  The polycythemia condition is categorized with blood cancers.  Well, this isn't sitting very well with me right now.  And the fact that I really can't share this is hard too.  I mean, this sucks.  If the full diagnosis is made that I do indeed truly have this condition then I'm going to have to tell my father (who just lost his wife {my mother} to liver cancer) that I have a blood cancer.  I'll have to tell my daughter...I'll have to tell my husband...I'll have to tell all my family and friends...  Which, I guess, will be a good thing because at that point I can talk about it.  The worst part of all of this is knowing that this is a high probability and not being able to seek comfort for it from anybody.  I mean, I don't want to accused of being a hypochondriac or anything (which has already happened).

So, in short, I'm trying not to fret until I see the doctor on Thursday.  I'm at least trying to hold my composure in the presence of others.  Until I can give a further update, please keep me in prayer...I need it in more ways than just for my health.